Well I had thought I figured it out... Relationships are hard. Very hard. Especially when the person you're in the relationship with lies to you and betrays you.

The more I think about this and allow myself to over-react and get upset, freak out, turn around, calm down, think rationally, ask myself again and again, "What did I do wrong?" I realize now that I didn't do anything wrong. Well, I trusted the wrong man. I believed that since he's from a really good family and had been betrayed himself that the possibility of him betraying me were less than remote. I was wrong. I've been wrong for a long time.

I was absolutely convinced that he is seeing another girl, someone we know. Well he knows her, she won't even say hello to me so whatever. I was so convinced it was her he was seeing. Now I'm not sure, but I realize it's still a possibility. Her "my space" has a bunch of stuff about her "new boyfriend" but the photo is of another guy. This doesn't mean anything really.

I'm pissed. I'm hurt. I'm betrayed.